Aristotle and the Jesuits both have a proverb, “Give me a child until he is 7 and I will show you the foundations of man.” So I guess from conception, I never really had a chance because my first 13 years were birthed in hell. I was born to a heroin addicted father who didn’t think I was his for the simple fact my eyes were greenish blue and because of this he would treat me like I wasn’t his child and differently from my brothers. I always seemed to catch his wrath. My mother left him when I was 3 only to go on and meet a monster who would savagely beat my brothers and I for the next 10 years of our lives. This man was meaner than a rattle snake and the psychological venom he injected into our minds through a relentless barrage of insults and false truths was far more debilitating than his kicks and punches. His insultive and belittling words became my self deprecating truths and would end up crippling me mentally for decades. He would come home from work drunk 3 or 4 days of the week and beat us for reasons unknown. This was a sick sadistic man who gained pleasure by brutally assaulting children. He had this death whistle, and as soon as I heard it, I knew that one of us was in trouble. My heart would sink and my stomach would start doing back flips like an olympic gymnast in a competion for a gold medal. From the moment I heard the sound of his whistle, I knew that an excruciating pain would soon follow. He’d line us up in single formation and start his torment by age, oldest to the youngest. By the time I was 7 years old I had been kicked down stairs, punched up stairs, hit with a tire iron, punched in the head, kicked so hard in my ass that I thought my back was broken, smacked to the floor, spit on, continuously whipped with a belt buckle until my ass cheeks bled, punched so hard in the torso area that I urinated on myself with every blow I received from him. These beatings went on for over 200 out of 365 ¼ days a year without fail for a decade and did not cease until I went into foster care at age 13 and that was only because my mom ended up in a mental institution. When he wasn’t beating me he would tell me everyday that I was fat and ugly, that no one would ever love me, and that I would never amount to anything. I couldn’t understand why he would be doing and saying this to me. I was a child. Parents are supposed to be there to protect and let you know that everything will be ok and more importantly, that I was safe. But I wasn’t, my tormentor lived in the confines of my home. He was brutal in his physical violence and relentless with his psychological warfare.
My mother finally left him, but the damage was already done. I was then placed in foster care and ended up becoming exactly what he said I would be -NOTHING! I couldn’t hold a job so I started selling drugs, using drugs and drinking. I would self sabotage when I had a good thing going and squandered every great opportunity that came my way. I eventually wound up in prison not once, but several times. However, the real eye opener was when I was arrested for Violation of the CORA Act( Corrupt Organizations and Racketeering Act ), Conspiracy to Racketeering, Sales of Narcotics, and Conspiracy to Distribute and the prosecutor was fighting my attorneys to give me 30 years in prison. When I heard that, I was ready to take my own life. I realized at that moment that I truly needed to change, but I didn’t have any idea as to how. I was tired of this lifestyle. After several years in prison and making the same idiotic mistakes over and over again I went to the prison library to get a psychology book to find out exactly what was wrong with me. From that point on I read every book (over 235) I could find in the areas of psychology, sociology, motivational, philosophy, religion, inspirational, sales and myriad of other great reads. The information in these books began to stir something inside of me.
I felt as though I didn’t have to be that person any more. I started growing a self confidence that I never knew existed in me and an understanding that what happened to me and what was said to me by the people who were supposed to nurture me wasn’t my fault. I read and understood for the first time the old adage “you have neither friends nor enemies only teachers.” I no longer wanted to blame my past because I knew that it was holding me back. At this time my confidence was becoming stronger and stronger and I wanted to put what I was reading into action. So I set a goal I was going to lose weight I was 265 at that moment and within months of pushing myself and eating the right foods I was 222 pounds. Then I had a little self doubt and started questioning this great feat because anyone could lose 43 pounds in prison. So I set another one. I have always been intrigued by the Latin culture and I always wanted to speak Spanish. So instead of hoping and wishing I bought a Basic Spanish book and Spanish Verb Tenses book and I studied incessantly. Sometimes 6 hours a day and in 18 months I was not only speaking, but reading and writing Spanish as well. That wasn’t the only goal I set or the only miracles that took place in my life that have since come to fruition. Time in prison was an epochal moment and the single greatest learning experience of my life. Being in the midst of all the violence and chaos I was able to focus and plan my future. When I discharged from prison I was hired as a salesman and became the number one salesman at my place of employment in 3 months and maintained that status until I moved on to a better company and became number one there as well. I started living my life instead of just meandering around and allowing life to live me. This is when I knew for certain and truly understood that I was the creator of my destiny, the master of my fate, and sole manifester of my dreams. But more importantly, I knew that I would be an amazing Life Coach by sharing my life story and letting you know that you too can become that vision that you have seen over and over again in your minds eye regardless of any obstacles, failures, let downs or abuse that you may have suffered. YOU ARE THE ANSWER TO YOUR FUTURE AND I AM HERE TO HELP YOU REVEAL THE BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF. GETT (Get Everything Through Thought) EXCITED!!